Let me begin by saying I don't know why I post these pictures haha They depress the hell out of me and make me want to go eat a cookie! Steve took these pictures when I rolled out of bed so don't mind the scary face lol This week has been touch and go. I managed to work out 4 times this week, however I need to do more. I also need to remind myself that i haven't worked out in over a year and therefore need to take things slow or I'll injure myself. Steve and i went to the mall on Monday to get Max some cute outfits for Miami and while I was there I tried on some things for myself since I don't fit in any of my pants yet. Part of me wishes I had never stepped into that changing room, the other part is glad I did. Let me clarify...changing room mirrors are never flattering, yet what I saw was even more shocking than I had expected. Not a single outfit I picked out fit...not one despite getting them bigger. Secondly the only thought that kept going through my mind was "OMGGG what will I do in Miami where I can't cover all this up!" I almost ran out of there and was quite upset. Eventually I got over my disgust and ventured into the Gap to get some jeans three sizes bigger then my normal size....3!!! Usually I'm a size 2...the jeans I bought were an 8. Not that there is anything wrong with an 8, but I'm a size 2 so that's a big difference for me. I know, I know...I was pregnant, carried my little man for nine months and need to be less judgemental of myself. I have heard it all, yet it doesn't make it any easier. I hate not feeling sexy or not fitting into anything. I guess part of me thought I'd bounce back faster than I have, but now I know it will be an uphill battle. It's amazing how my body has changed, especially around my hips. I know I carry all my weight in my thighs, hips and butt. I tried to wear a belt with the new jeans I bought, I couldn't even get it around my hips! That was another low point for me and kind of surprised me. I guess I didn't realize how much my body really has changed. People have told me it takes nine months to pop out a baby, and nine months to lose it all. I am starting to wonder if that is true. Either way, I'm going to work real hard to get my confidence back and to lose it before baby number two. Yes I said it...baby number 2 haha We have been trying to eat healthier...here is a picture of tonight's dinner (Disclaimer: it was cooked by my amazing mother in law):
Steve and I have decided to do the lemon/maple syrup cleanse starting Monday. My parents just did it and lost a lot of weight on it. I'm hoping that will jump start things and after that I'll do the south beach diet. Wish me luck!
WEIGHT: 132 POUNDS (lost 2 lbs)
Congrats on the 2 pound loss! I still think you look fantastic, but I so understand the feeling of being unhappy with yourself. That dinner looks yummy. :)
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